So this is a little late, it took a minute for me to get everything down. …
This thanksgiving was spent with my small family and it was lovely. No running around to go to someone’s house AND no need to prep the house for additional visitors!
Don’t get me wrong, I love having friends and family over. But this Thanksgiving right now was the most peaceful and thankful that I have had in a while. Not concerned with extended family or friends and making sure everyone is comfortable and eating food they like. Cleaning everything for visitors or making sure the house is organized.
My reality this Thanksgiving was a bit of a messy house, toys strewn about, laundry that needed to be done, and my 2 yr old son was not in his Sunday best instead he was in comfy clothes. My husband and I were dressed nicely but… I was barefoot! Not something I could do with my mother around, not at all!
This day and the way we spent it was so lovely. We spent a portion cooking and “tasting” everything we cooked…lol . Then we made our table and ate!! Drank some wine and ate our dessert!! I thoroughly enjoyed being with my little family.
The year has been a little hard for us. So much violence around the world, some close to home. And personally we had another miscarriage. You would think after having my third it would be old hat, but it really isn’t. The low from that loss feels so very low because it comes at the heels of a high that is so very high. YAY a baby!!!! Then you blink and that’s gone.
I felt dazed afterwards because I can’t seem to get used to those extreme emotions back to back. As always my husband was amazingly wonderful. I have no idea how he does it truly, but he always says the right thing and makes me feel so loved. He makes everything feel okay, no matter what is going on around us. I am so very fortunate to have that love in my life, and I thank the powers that be everyday for him.
But the thing that really centered me after that loss was my son. His face, the miracle of his being with us, after two miscarriages and an ectopic pregnancy. I have my miracle my beautiful baby boy.
That face made me realize how blessed we are and although I was sad for the loss I was grateful I have him and my husband. Our family although small is such a blessing and everything we have gone through has been worth having this little boy to hold everyday. I wouldn’t trade it for the world.
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